I'm just a teenaged girl trying to figure out life, and I enjoy movies, music, and books maybe a little too much.
reblog if you’re unattractive and awkward.
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The photo on the left was earlier today, when I was pretending to be fine. I was okay, fine, just peachy, etc. Or at least I thought I was. I thought I could get through the day and be fine, I thought this day was going to be okay. But mid-day the depression hit me. So, what did I do? I put my head phones in and tried to just push all the negative stuff away, but it only kept getting worse. My boyfriend was right there, he asked if I was upset, but I said ‘no, I’m fine’. Why did I say that? I could’ve asked for help, I could’ve talked to him, he could’ve helped make it better. But I was to scared of asking for help, I’m terrified of annoying him with my problems. Then, he had to leave to go to his dad’s. When he kissed me goodbye I wanted to tell him, but I didn’t. I kept it to myself. As soon as he shut our bedroom door behind him I began crying and I couldn’t stop. The makeup running down my face in the right picture, that’s all real. It was my actual makeup running down my face like crazy because one I wear too much mascara and two, I was crying that much. Somehow I stopped crying. I’m not doing this for attention, not at all.
I suffer from Depression, Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, Anxiety, OCD, I’m slightly suicidial and I’m recovering from a boderline E.D and selfharm. I always feel alone and like that’s the only way I can get through any of this, like I have to be strong by myself. But I don’t. I have my boyfriend and my bestfriend to help me, the only two I can really trust. Though with my bestfriend over 1,000 miles away it sucks so I rely more on my boyfriend. I’m blessed to have them.
I’m here to tell you that you are not alone. Find a good friend, family member, significant other, a staff member at school and/or work that you can trust, call a hotline, or if possible a therapist. If you have none of those people, if you feel absolutely alone turn to me, talk to me, I will listen, I won’t tell anyone your secrets, I’m here. Another option, there are plenty of other tumblr users that will listen to your troubles like I will. You don’t have to go through this alone. I know, you’re like me. You tough it out as much as possible, faking smiles and laughs and mindless conversations, but once you get alone you lose it. You breakdown, all your sorrows get to you, everything that’s eating you up inside comes out and you bawl your eyes out. And that’s okay, but you don’t have to face it alone. That’s what the point of this is. Don’t face any of this alone.
And remember, you’re beautiful and strong, and you will get through this.
P.S Excuse me for being the ugliest crier ever.
My boyfriend has this fear that when he leaves for the Army I will find a man better than him. But there’s no one better than him. Because he has
- Saved my life.
- Woken up from a dead sleep to hold me while I cried for no reason due to a panic attack.
- Accept the fact that I write people letters to express my feelings instead of saying them out loud.
- Accepted all my flaws.
- Made me more comfortable than anyone else.
- Tried to help me face my fears.
- Walked me outside at night because I’m scared of the dark.
- Held my hand while I was in a lot of physical pain mulitple times.
- Drawn me a hot bubble bath because I was laying in bed crying from back and neck pain.
- Told me how beautiful he thinks I am on a regular basis.
- Accepted my family.
- Stopped lying to practically everyone because I hate liars.
- Never judged me for having a bad day and for snapping at him for no reason because of my Bipolar disorder.
- Held me as I cried because I’ve missed loved ones who have passed on.
- Kept me sane.
- Became my second bestfriend.
- Watched movies all day with because it’s one of our favorite hobbies.
- Planned a life with me.
- Accepted my religion and has the same religious views.
- Bought and/or cooked me food countless times.
- Made me more confident in my own body.
- Never judged me for how weird I am.
- Began to understand sometimes I’m just having horrible days because of my depression.
- Makes me tea all the time, especially when I’m sick or upset.
- Watched romantic movies for me.
- Taken me to prom.
- Made me feel like a princess.
- Hated the man who has hurt me most, despite the fact he’s never met him.
- Let me tell him all my problems without complaining.
- Made my life better in every aspect.
- Wiped my tears away countless times, even in public places including school.
- Adored me for all my weird hobbies and “talents”.
- Made me feel like the most loved girl even before we were together and despite the fact he’s never told me he loves me.
- Listened to girly music with me because I wanted too.
- Saved me from relasping even more with my boderline E.D.
- Stopped me from cutting again.
- A matching smiley face tattoo on his hand.
- Believed in me no matter what.
- Challenged me, in a good way.
- Never emotionally hurt me.
- Yelled at me.
- Never physically hurt me.
- Never judged me for my fears/phobias.
- Shares my fear of confined/small places.
- His tattoos.
- His smile.
- His eyes.
- His hair.
- His face.
- His perfect nose.
- His torso.
- His legs.
- His arms.
- His butt.
- His everything.
No man will ever compare to my boyfriend, no matter what anyone says. There’s not a man on this Earth that is better than him, not in my eyes. This list isn’t even everything he’s done for me, or everything that is perfect about it. I don’t understand how my boyfriend cannot see how wonderful and perfect he is.
When my boyfriend shaves his face I die a little inside.
Tryyy chuchuchu
- ᄏ: Play any instruments?
- ω: Have you ever dyed your hair? If so, what color(s)?
- △: Have you ever painted the walls of your room?
- 【・ヘ・?】: Ever tripped in front a bunch of people?
- 旦: Last time you drove your car (if you can drive/have one)?
- 愛: Are you currently dating?
- 太: When it's New Year's, do you make New Year Resolutions and actually commit to them?
- ＠: Ever felt attracted to the opposite sex before?
- (｀▽´)Ψ: Did you used to play hide-and-seek when you were little inside stores?
- (づ￣ ³￣)づ : Have you ever had to hug someone you didn't want to?
- 空: Did you ever throw up after one roller coaster ride or a few?
- ☆: Have you ever played games such as 'Spin the Bottle'?
- ⊙: Are you happy with where you are in life right now?
- ヽ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ: Have you ever wanted to flip a table before? If so, why?
- ピ: Did you like Pokemon as a child?
- (⌒.−): Are there times where you wish to go back in time and redo or fix something you regret?
- ♪: Do you find yourself singing or humming to yourself sometimes?
- ☁: Ever wanted to learn a foreign language?
- (;° ロ°): Have you ever lost your wallet or purse?
- ス: Have you ever swallowed gum?
- ♀: Tell me something that turns you on.
- ♂: Tell me something that turns you off.
- ⅚: Post the link of your current favorite song.
- ღ: Post a gif of what you're currently feeling right now.
- ≘: Have you ever watched the sun rise?
- ☄: Would you defend a friend if they were in danger?
- હ: Are you still a virgin?
- ➍: Ever been to a concert? Was it fun?
- ♛: Do you like group projects?
- 高: How often do you use headphones/earbuds?
- ಲ: Headphones or earbuds?
- ♞: Showers or baths?
- ✗: Walks on the beach or in a forest?
- ⊙﹏⊙: Which horror movie scared you the most? If any?
- ^∇^: Has your best friend ever made you angry?
- （．＿．）: Do you think you are an awkward person?
- メ: Cupcakes or muffins?
- (●´∀｀●): Ponies or Horses?
- ♯: Would you like to be able to fly?
- (ﾉ´▽｀)ﾉ: Ever done or considered to do drugs?
- ℝ: What color shirt are you currently wearing?
- Æ: What color underwear did you wear yesterday?
- ☪: Have you ever flipped off someone?
- ♬: Cats or dogs?
- 礼: Would you swim in the lake or ocean?
- の: Chocolate or Vanilla?
- ◐: Have you ever seen a meteor shower?
- ᄇ: Have you ever broken a bone?
- 었: Any tattoos?
- 싫: Any piercings?
- ℨ: If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
- Σ: Have you ever farted in public before?
- ℋ: Tell us a recent awkward moment you had.
- ♔: Know the Duck Song? The Llama Song? Banana Phone?
- ۞: What shows did you watch when you were a child?
- ▼: Could you live without the internet?
- Д: Strangest food you've eaten?
- 까: Cookies or brownies?
EVERYONE STOP WHAT YOU’RE DOING AND REBLOG, CAUSE THERE IS A FUCKING BABY OTTER PLAYING WITH A SET OF CAR KEYS ON YOUR DASH, OKAY?!
Sherlock Holmes, 11 months, deducing keys.
I just died of cute.
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Reblog if you would watch a Supernatural movie dedicated to saving Adam from the pit.
US foreign policy summed up by Spongebob
I can almost here “My Leg! My Leg!”
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“This piece was primarily a trust exercise, in which she told viewers she would not move for six hours no matter what they did to her. She placed 72 objects one could use in pleasing or destructive ways, ranging from flowers and a feather boa to a knife and a loaded pistol, on a table near her and invited the viewers to use them on her however they wanted.
Initially, Abramović said, viewers were peaceful and timid, but it escalated to violence quickly. “The experience I learned was that … if you leave decision to the public, you can be killed… I felt really violated: they cut my clothes, stuck rose thorns in my stomach, one person aimed the gun at my head, and another took it away. It created an aggressive atmosphere. After exactly 6 hours, as planned, I stood up and started walking toward the public. Everyone ran away, escaping an actual confrontation.”
This piece revealed something terrible about humanity, similar to what Philip Zimbardo’s Stanford Prison Experiment or Stanley Milgram’s Obedience Experiment, both of which also proved how readily people will harm one another under unusual circumstances.”
This performance showed just how easy it is to dehumanize a person who doesn’t fight back, and is particularly powerful because it defies what we think we know about ourselves. I’m certain the no one reading this believes the people around him/her capable of doing such things to another human being, but this performance proves otherwise.”
this is why performance art is important
So every single person who told me ‘ignore them they’ll go away’ and ‘you can’t let them know they bothered you’ and ‘They’ll stop if they don’t see you react’ and all that bull shit, my entire school career, I want you to look good and hard at this.
I want you to think about what you said.
What you keep saying.
What you are telling your children.
You are making them powerless.
Every time I see this post, I reblog it because it’s one of my favorites. It also makes me want to cry, every time.
